Santa--

I want to be able to let my mom know...that I'm alright here. That it's okay. And that I love her, lots and lots.

I want to see her again. And...and Rubedo. Albedo and Nigredo too. I ...miss everyone.

And to see my friends again.

Sakura


[ooc; HAHAHAHA I have the worst timing in the WORLD. back in a bit.]

That was a wonderful curse-- it seems a bit weird to call it a curse, even.

Everyone was really nice to me, and...and Rubedo came! I'm glad I could see him again. There were two of him...which seemed...weird.


Even for just a day. I'm glad.



Has anyone looked in all the rooms in the Opera House? I feel a little bit like exploring!

Um...

There are a lot more people here today, aren't there?

[ooc; go 4 it ;;. Try not to mention the part where she dies, I guess? :c]

[voice post]

I never woke up at home...I guess this isn't what I thought after all.


But then...then, that means...

You guys!

You can all hear me, can't you?

...Rubedo? Albedo? Nigredo?

Where are- where are you? We were supposed to- go to the beach-





No... What's going on? This- this never happened before- I don't recognize...


...Wasn't it just snowing?



[ooc; orz complete restart. She thinks she's still stuck in her own subconsciousness, hence the ability to speak, and very confused as to why it doesn't look like it usually does. She'll assume everyone she meets has come into her subconscious domain until someone points out otherwise. Wandering around near the edge of the forest if someone wants to run into her randomly.]

[Anyone in the Opera House can hear the melody drifting through the hallways, but she's set the network device near the piano, recording on purpose.


After the nocturne is finished, there's a pause, and a small sigh.]

I made it through the tough part.


[A scrape of the piano bench and a few steps, as she gets up and walks to the computer.]

I hope...everyone is feeling a little better. It's not much...but I hope the music helped a little.


[ooc; wtf lj I swear that link was right before D:]

It's not fair, everything's happening at once, people are dying and things are happening, and there's blood everywhere today-

And it was never my fault, anything that happened-

I should be stronger but I'm not, it was always Rubedo who was stronger, or- or Nigredo or Albe--



...I miss my mom. I want her here but I can't want her here, and it's too much-


I need to-

I don't know what I need anymore...

-do something.


[ooc; orz sorry about the excessive ANGST. Meltdown has been in the works. Strikes unfortunately fairly easily hackable, she's rather overwhelmed at the moment.]

I don't have a letter this time.


I wonder if it's because I just didn't get hit, or if the City changed it's mind from last time.

...Oh!


I forgot.


Yesterday...yesterday makes two years. ...I guess this makes me 14.

( She met three boys ; no IC cut )

Ahh...I remember...I'll never forget.


[ooc; First video can be skipped to 2:00 and the second to 2:15 if you don't feel like watching some extra Xenosaga.]

[ accidental voice post ]

[Once again, a soft, child's voice takes up the tune. It's not perfect, but melodic nonetheless]

♬ Every moment was sacred and mystic
We were near to the shore of eternity
The days are gone, and will never come back

You were a half of me...long time ago

Life can never be perfect without you
But I'm still on my way to the future
For I remember your sweet song in my mind

To the lost horizon, I'm calling your name
Again and again...

[ooc; Sweet Song, don't mind the video. Yes I've done this before but it's her theme song!]

It shouldn't be snowing, it shouldn't-

I-it did this last year too...

It's not like then, Rubedo's not here. Rubedo is fine, and Albedo...Albedo isn't here either. No one's going to get hurt. I have to believe it.


...Be careful in the snow, everyone.


[ooc; bad memories ahoy! She's going to be v. much inside unless dragged out to enjoy herself. Strikes unfortunately easily hackable.]

Top 5 People I Miss In The City
1. Rubedo
2. Mom
3. Dad
4. MOMO
5. ...Rubedo.

Top 6 People I'm Glad I Know In The City
1. Sarah
2. Megumi
3. Autor
4. Fakir
5. Shiki
6. Tamaki

Top 5 Best Things About The City
1. Speaking.
2. Making friends
3. I got to meet my sister.
4. Speaking.
5. Some of the curses are really nice.

...I'm cursed after all, I guess.

Ah-


Um. I-


That was...really weird, Tamaki-


Shiki, I-


I think I'll stay in my room today.


[ooc; See Sakura flail. Her face is stuck like this-> .//////. And she'll be hugging a stuffed animal on her bed if anyone in the Opera House knocks on her door.]

Baba organized the marriage so quickly...I didn't realize I would have to think about leaving so soon.


I should hope I can still visit my sisters, afterwards.

First wife, Baba said- it would be an honor, I suppose. I hope I don't have to do any of the roundkicks Baba kept talking about. I'm not sure I could.


The dowry...was it settled between Baba and my arranged?


[ooc; my brain weeps in that cracktackular way only poly can make it weep. |D]

Everyone's grown again today, right?

It was funny being older than most people- I'm usually so much younger.


Faye, it was nice to meet you properly yesterday. And Autor...I hope you had fun yesterday.

I...think I'm shedding flower petals? I woke up in a pile of them.

It's kind of pretty, but...It's sort of strange to watch.



I probably shouldn't play today- they might get in the piano.

[ooc; Sakura = sakura petals :|]

...There were never diseases like this at home.

I don't know what to do-

Can- it's Is...everyone okay? Please...please be okay.

Um...

Shiki, if you like...I made cookies. You're always dealing with me when I'm...not my best. So I wanted to say thank you.



Sarah and I made a lot, so there's a bunch left over, if anyone in the Opera House wants any.

I can speak, I know I can, people can hear me. They can. It's gone, here, I can speak and they can hear, it won't happen again-


I can do things. I can make friends. I can.

[ooc; Terrified of regaining her disease that robbed her of her ability to interact with the world, most notably removing her ability to speak.]